Is this thing on?

Testing, 1, 2, 3. 

I think I'm on... It feels a bit weird to be doing this whole blogging thing again. It hasn't happened since the good-ole' Livejournal days, where my posts consisted mostly of song lyrics and "deep thoughts." But I have moved on from that pretentiousness, and will now be simply talking about every-day life happenings, at least that is my intention for now. Anyway, enough prefacing, let's get on with the damned thing.

I have always had in me an intense desire to CREATE, but have not been creating in any form for a very long time. Not even writing!! Perhaps this is why I have felt a little bit off, not quite myself. I'm determined to start now. I've already started setting up a shop on etsy, a fabulous, one-of-a-kind website where you can buy & sell all sorts of handmade goodies. I am starting off with earring-making, figured I can't go wrong with that. And, well, of course, I adore earrings. From there, I am thinking handmade felt creations of all types and sizes because I am really into felt lately. And who knows what else - the sky is the limit, as they say. Hopefully, my shop will be up and running within the next couple of weeks :)

That is what's on my mind most right now - I am really eager to start creating again. Other than that, I have been pretty frustrated lately with my funky work schedule and how it makes Joel and I's time together very minimal. On a typical week day, I just see him in passing and don't get any real time with him. We never get to have dinner together, go on dates or just relax together (with the exception of weekends, well, most) and this is very hard for me. I need a regular, consistent dose of Joel in my life.  To add to this crappy-ness, the insurance rates at my work just doubled, meaning I can't even afford insurance for myself, let alone Joel. Meaning the both of us will continue to go without health insurance. My intention wasn't to complain here, I swear... got a little carried away... what I was getting to is that I was reading Scripture last night (I'm FINALLY getting into the routine of reading regularly again & it feels SO good), and I came upon the following passage from Matthew 7:

"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened."

And I realized that rather than COMPLAINING and moping all the time about the situation, I should be asking God to change it!! Hello!! So now I need to work on having FAITH that God CAN send a new job my way despite the horrific economy, or improve our situation one way or another, keeping in mind that he wants what is best for me. All I have to do is ask!!

Well I fear that if this post gets any longer, I will lose readers. I should be back tomorrow :) This feels kinda nice.